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a-ha = uh-oh?

Suppose that two individuals are attracted to each other because they encourage or validate each others drama.

Now suppose that one individual experiences an a-ha and dissolves the drama that attracted him / her to his / her partner.

What are the consequences for the relationship, and what does this say about long-term relationships in general?

In other words - if drama is a component of all human relationships, and dramas are subject to becoming passing a-ha's, isn't it inevitable that all relationships become passing a-ha's as well?

Your insight is appreciated (as always).

regards,

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I consciously sought balance in the emotional, physical, mental, spiritual and sexual intertwinings of my life. And I flowered in many ways. But my financial health stubbornly refused to show much progress. I have examined this issue over the last 15 years and the research process has made only small incremental shifts in my abundance level. I have been calling for an opening of the floodgates and in September of this year I met someone who embodied new information regarding the key to those gates [the leader of my local Tribe] ... his sponsorship of my entry into the TTP process (amongst other things) has constituted an answer to my call for a method for increasing my financial consciousness.

As a lifelong spiritual seeker and, more recently, a systems therapist, I have experienced and facilitated many forms of guided visualization and inner journeying for the purposes of healing old wounds and dancing into new inner and outer territory. The TTP was not an unfamiliar landscape. What was new and invigorating for me was the application of this process to my financial health. My wall around material abundance had been so impenetrable that I never conceived of applying familiar therapeutic techniques to this area of my life. The embedded disconnect between Fred and CM were just too powerful. But since doing the TTP I am feeling a wonderful shift underway: the insights coming from the process opened a brand new channel of dialogue in my interiors and the “AHA’s” are gently, pleasantly flowing in on almost a daily basis.

The process led me through feelings of terror, rage, abandonment, disgust, numbness and de-humanization that I experienced in one of the ritual ceremonies I was subjected to as a 3 year old. As we started the process, I had difficulty staying connected to my body. I had learned as a child that the easiest way to avoid experiencing discomfort was to escape the body altogether. In TTP, I began with a hard-shelled ball of dark, sticky substance in my abdomen. When encouraged to expand the feeling in my body, my torso disappeared altogether– it was replaced by a black void that simply seemed to open to the universe beyond, and it had these dangling appendages (arms, legs, head) somehow still attached to it. In this detached and transparent state, words were difficult to access and we realized that I was simply not in my body and was not connecting with sensation. When this condition became apparent, [Leader] would reflect to me that I was not in my body and he would invite my willingness to go back to the feeling state. After several cycles of going back and forth I was able to feel the emotions I listed earlier. One of the most informative threads I discovered is the feeling I call de-humanization. I experienced a state of dissolution; felt as if a cork had been unplugged at the base of my spine and all the internal substance from my body drained away. I felt it floating out into the space around me, leaving me ... nothingness. My verbalizations as that was registering in CM was incredulity that the people performing this act on me actually believed they were somehow operating on a non-entity. I could sense their absence from the moment, although they were certainly present in bodily form – they truly believed there was no consciousness present in my body as a witness to their behavior. I think I said something like “Don’t they know that I am watching this ghastly spectacle and that I will carry it with me always and use it later to fuel a mission designed to counteract the intent of their ceremony? Who do they think they are dealing with?” I felt indignant at their ignor-ance of my awareness at that time and felt the humiliation at their intrusion and their disrespect in violating the sanctity of my personal space.

The predominant theme that washed through me as I emerged from the experiential journey was the concept of self-value. I lost connection to feeling valued and worthy of love and abundance in life because of the forceful demonstration of the adults in that particular ceremony. CM had interpreted the event in this way: if the adults in charge of my care could let me be exposed to this nightmare, then I must not be of value to them. The messages crammed down the chute at that time were: “My needs and desires are inconsequential; irrelevant. Banish them all. I exist to serve others and do not exist outside of them and their agendas. I need nothing. I am nothing. I have no value or worth.” The emotions associated with this experience did not stop surfacing on the day of the process. They are still coming up, still cascading through over the last two weeks. When they come, I make allowance if I am in a safe place; if I am not, I wait until I am able to get to a space where I can allow full release. [Leader] remains available to me by phone when I need his help in processing. I am very grateful for his dedicated assistance.

Another realization emerging from TTP is that my chronic difficulty in noticing or allowing feelings stems often from the ease at which I disengage from my body. I’ve had a knack for maintaining daily operations while existing in a sort of daydream state of disconnect from the world around me. Over the years, I have allowed myself pleasure through orgasm, dancing and other forms of physical exercise in order to keep a thread of connection to my otherwise-numbed physical body. I haven’t needed chemical addictions for numbing myself because it simply happens naturally by allowing my childhood auto-disconnect function to operate. My body was flooded at a tender age by a chemical s---storm, and coped accordingly with the mostly pre-verbal tools it had at the time. When nudged by an uncomfortable thought or emotion it has, historically, been much easier to simply check out of my body than to sit with it and allow it full expression and release. Although I have done much emotional release work over the years, I knew there were blockages impeding my financial health. Since the many avenues I’d explored had not yielded satisfactory results in this one area, I knew I was looking for a new strategy – but didn’t know what it was. About the only type of therapeutic process I’ve heard about and haven’t experienced is EMDR. I decided to risk looking for something completely new and found [Leader] - and the gift of your lifework.

I have already begun to act differently as a result of TTP. Two days after my first session I went to the contract supervisor for the job I just started and noted that the project I’m coordinating involves a higher level of complexity and responsibility than I had been informed of and am being paid for. She agreed to re-negotiate my pay rate. This act was precipitated by my awareness of feeling constriction in my throat as I was driving to the job site. I labeled it as resentment and identified what was triggering it and what I needed to do about it. Previously my CM would have simply ignored the throat constriction. I would have continued doing and resenting the job and feeling undervalued for my contribution to the project. Now I am feeling energized in going to work on this difficult job because I feel joy in using my skills and contributing to a definable goal – and being appropriately compensated for my effort. There is no resentment lingering to sabotage my en-joy-ment of the challenge.

[Leader's] processing with me through TTP has allowed me to make major connections with how these internal mechanisms work and thus, how to allow more full consciousness to imbue the work with deeper flushing capacity. I am aware at how tender my abdomen feels when someone tells me “you could write a book about all of this in a couple of months and have a bestseller on your hands”. The thought of success at doing something I love (writing) brings up fear. I notice the fear, the constriction in my abdomen, and I feel the residues of anxiety the verbalization generates, and can smile at it, sincerely thank and embrace it for the protection it has given me all these years, and then let it float away. Anxiety, depression, numbness, obscurity – all of these kept me flying below the radar, kept me safe in my internal cocoon. I could not figure out how to remove them from my adult physical operational level. This simple, yet profound, process will continually help shift that for me.

I have been examining my habitual mental expectations and how they alter my access to financial opportunities in my life. The expectations around finances that I received from family mental maps include these: " we will always have just enough to get by", "abundant wealth is an attribute of elitist, oppressive and dictatorial authorities and is therefore evil", "nothing good is associated with financial wealth", " money is always in short supply and thus should be spent only when absolutely necessary". These traps plus the prohibitions ingrained through forced ritual ceremonies have combined to imbed ironclad boundaries around freedom of _expression and manifestation in my life. . The concept of a flourishing life did not exist because it was totally absent from my definition or experience of survival.

I see that the programmatic mandates from my family are about life being a struggle with very few redeeming or kind moments; money is only about survival rather than exuberant indulgence in life and its manifest pleasures in the material realm. And beyond the financial ... Joy seemed not to exist in my family. Love was an energy that was so heavily masked with treachery and mistrust that it was really only beautiful in fantasy or daydream. Love was a phantom. No easier than breathing underwater. I feel utter desolation at reading those two lines... I let my head fall into my hands and sink into that feeling ... It is a profound heaviness.

The quality of that heaviness of my internally lodged feelings is absolute dead solid inescapable freezing weight. That is the place where my expectations and judgments come from. Allowing abundance for myself entails the practice of relinquishing judgments and expectations and consciously setting my new frame of reference to be the state of relaxed, open receptivity to whatever is in my field of awareness at any given moment. This state of openness is to be grounded through intentions for abundance, balance and limitless joy and beauty in my life.

I am very grateful for having found this organization, its members and its tools for creating more conscious and intentional action in my life. I am not a trader currently as I have just found this organization and am still processing through the readings before I can intelligently begin. But I now joyfully commit to expanding my active participation in this process. I hold the thought that humans on this planet are co-creating an evolution revolution: we are letting go of the need for constrictive drama in relationship to Life in exchange for joyful and harmonious dancing with it. So may it be …

I am highly impressed with [Leader's] skill in facilitating this process. He automatically connects on a directly intuitive level and uses his voice to maximum effect, moderating the tone and pace of the session fluidly and seamlessly. (I would swear that he has done this professionally, as I have participated in numerous sessions of this type over the last 15 years and know an expert therapeutic facilitator when I encounter one.) He had a very gentle and relaxed manner in nudging me through resistant blockage points, just patiently inviting and encouraging me to allow myself through the portal – whatever it happened to be. Concurrently, he holds the TTP intent and focus with great care and integrity. I always felt safe and relaxed with him despite the fact that I have known him for only a short while (and despite the heavy-duty content of material that I was processing through).

I am very interested in the breath-work retreat that you have coming up. I am familiar with Stan (and Christina’s) work but have not done that particular “brand” of breath-work; have practiced 3 or 4 other rhythms that I had considerable success with in releasing trauma wounds. I don’t meet the stated qualifications for participation in your December retreat but thought I would ask if there are ever exceptions made. I felt drawn to it so thought I would ask, just in case …

I must say that, in my experience, it is possible to DIM. I have infrequent but wonderful spontaneous episodes of blockage release through intentional breath-work or conscious breathing in combination with orgasm. I agree that TTP is a predictably reliable process and I understand the need to prep participants with admonition about attempts to do the work on their own, but I felt my message to you would be incomplete without stating what is true for me, on occasion. I cultivate direct connection with Under-Fred and once in a while Life floods through me in brilliant, separation-shattering translucency and I have to claim that as contrary to the statement that the work can only be done with others present.

Lastly I want to thank you for your dedication to bringing seriously therapeutic release work to a wide audience. It is a very cunning way to “couch” therapy; your choice of what I call “languaging” around the process is quite effective and I particularly appreciate the tone of your humor. You continually model the “walk your talk” practice and that integrity level is refreshing. It evokes hope in me. You provide me with inspiration in this creation of an ongoing dialogue with people who are committed to changing consciousness. I bow in gratitude for your sharing of these gifts.

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However, I have a few questions which I need answered before I can make an
informed decision as to whether or not there would be mutual benefit ...

When and where does the group meet?

What type of research is being referred to here? Purely numerical? Purely psychological? A combination of both?

What exactly is a receiver?

Other questions that immediately come to mind are:

Are there any fees to join or participate? Is there an expected income level? Is this an appropriate place for a quasi-beginner?

I am very grateful for any time you would spend to answer my questions.

Sincerely,

See the Directory Page for information on joining a Tribe.  Consult the Glossary for terms like receiver.

TT Breathwork


Dear Sir,

I'm still waiting for Grof's book to arrive, which I've ordered immediately as soon as I see the breath work. Guess it's the holiday season delay. However, I've been thinking about it a lot, and I have a couple of questions though: how much is the breath work similar to your recent TTP work like half-a-yoga and polarity, and do you think we can go through those as well during the weekend? Many thanks!!!

Take my breath away
My love, take my breath away

Basketball

Dear Ed,

Last night I had a dream where I went to play basketball on a street court, and I saw some classmates from junior high school. My immediate thought was "Great" (as in happily seeing folks I know), but that died almost instantaneously and turned into a "Great, you guys won't even invite me to play together, even though you know I always want to play basketball."

They aren't that pleased to see me either, and do not appear to want to play with me. I ask one of them why they didn't let me know they'd come playing, and he gives me a very lame excuse. Deep down though, I know the answer already. I never really get along with them, and never really develop any close friendships with anyone. Not even the kind of brotherhood bonding (that one always sees in sports team) that I always idolize, but just a close friend to share secrets with or to talk to. And thus among the "sore spots" for me, this one probably ranks very high.

To be fair, most of my childhood I haven't been a likeable person, and probably even I would find it difficult to be friends with my old self. But I thought I have changed. I thought I have transformed myself. Why wouldn't you guys give me a chance?

I find myself hiding and weeping, asking myself repeatedly the question, "Why wouldn't you give me a chance?" I remember how a jerk I was one time when I played basketball, but now I understand that it's just a game, and I treasure more the friendship, the sportsmanship, the competitive spirit and the bonding. I just want to play and have fun. Why wouldn't you give me the chance? What do you need me to do to fully accept me?

And here's the amazing part - immediately I have the aha. The answer comes to my mind so naturally, as if it is so obvious that you don't even need to think one plus one is two. To have them fully accept me, I must first fully accept them, and that means accept them without reservations or judgment - which includes my judgment that they have judgment on me. When I am feeling grudgingly against them for excluding me, it just means I haven't fully accepted them. And if I haven't even fully accepted them, how can I expect them to fully accept me?

That is when I get half-awake. I make a conscious effort to remember this dream, the emotions, feelings and insights. I feel really great about it, for it feels that TTP is so natural in me, that it is a part of me, and I am flowing in it. I remember you once said in the FAQ, "One way to draw people closer is to respect their desire for distance." Again, thank you very much, Ed!!! I appreciate all the teachings you give me and the tremendous impact you have on me, even though you are probably unaware. Thank you wholeheartedly!!

If so can you please provide contact email address or contact number?

Consult the Directory Page for information on joining.

Hello Mr. Seykota:

I am reading the book, Trend Following, and it is a fascinating read.

There are many co-incidences that run through this book that have been brushing the edges of my life.

For example: [Name] is quoted in this book speaking rather admirably about you. [He] is a close friend with a couple of friends of mine and cut his teeth at [Company] ... owned, prior to its sale to [Other Company], by a friend of mine, [Friend]. I live in [City] and [Friend] has a cottage here which he stays at for several months of the year. [Friend] also owns [Still another company]. I worked in [Place] for 6 months in 2001 and would visit with [Friend] regularly about the financial markets.

I have worked as an Investment Advisor for a large firm ... and now work as a venture capitalist as well as an I.R. consultant to start-up and small cap companies.

I have always been a trader at heart, although not as successful as the Trend Followers mentioned in the book.

I would love to become a student of the Trend Following system.

How would I go about becoming a student as such or apprentice from someone such as yourself or other successful Trend Followers.

Sincerely,

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It fits in with my research project of hedging
currency risk. I still need to narrow my focus on how to approach currency risk and how to effectively hedge it. I am thinking about taking the angle that assets should be denominated in the strongest currency as defined by a trend following model. In essence not necessarily hedging currency risk as much as denominating the assets in the strongest currency.

On another note, my parents are coming in this weekend and I have been talking to my dad about TTP. He said that he did something similar back in the late 1960's when he graduated from college that helped him work through some blocks. He is interested in any reading material and/or authors on the topic. If you have any suggestions, please pass them along.

My dad owns and operates a manufacturing and sales company that sells Quonset and straight-wall steel buildings (i.e. air plane hangars, warehouses, storage facilities, etc.). He has been in business for 33 years and he is running into executives that have become dead weight (they have made more money than they ever thought possible) and a sales force that works on the model 5% survival and 95% bullshit. I am sure this is no surprise. He is the industry leader and has been extremely successful, but not to the degree he thinks achievable.

An example of something he encounters a few times a year is when a salesman buy a new home. He says every time that happens that they are worthless for the next 4-6 months.

I think he would like to learn as much as possible about TTP and potentially work with a few of his salesmen on TTP.

Anyways, Happy Thanksgiving!

I am willing to attend a workshop.

I am willing to conduct research on trading systems.

I am willing to report my experiences to FAQ.

I am willing to participate fully as a receiver.

I am willing to take the hot seat at every meeting.

Regular attendance is also essential.

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TTP Works for Psychologists

Hi Ed:

We loved your presentation, as, from the feedback forms they gave us, did the participants. Participants consistently cited your presentation as their favorite. Your presentations entertain, individuals integrate, the group bonds.

We'd like to invite you to lead a half- or whole-day ... at our 6-Day Florida April 20-26 meeting.

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Reminds me of a few trades.

Can I put a link to your website at my own website?

I would like the opportunity of listing The Trading Tribe as a place where traders and future traders alike can gain the insights and knowledge necessary before launching into their next investment opportunity. I would also want with your permission want to post Donchian's 20 Trading Guides at my website.

God bless your business bigtime !

Cheers,

Yes.

More Glossary

Ed -

As an exercise in better understanding, I re-arranged and edited the glossary items into a hierarchical outline context, where subordinate ideas and concepts are grouped within the superior concept, as indicated by right-ward indentation. The root concept is "Trading Tribe", and its peer anti-Tribe item is DIM.

It has been an interesting and illuminating exercise, which yielded a couple of things you might want to consider, below. I have attached PDF and html versions of the document. Please feel free to use this outline however you like.

+ there are two items for "right livelihood" which might be consolidated:

1) When Fred and CM communicate, Fred reduces the pressure on the feelings pump and drama melts away. Absent dramatic distraction, people align CM and Fred toward sharing their special gifts with focus and vigor.

2) living the Responsibility Model, and being willing to experience
forms.

+ I am not clear on the distinction between 'emotion' and 'sensation'.

+ I edited the text so that every occurrence of the word "this" is now followed by the word to which "this" refers. This change is a style point that was hard-coded in college and working as an editor at [Magazine] ...

+ each occurrence of a special word in the definitions is italicized, and might be hyper-linked to the definitions, as you have done in Glossary. If you would like to publish the html version on the site, I would be happy to create the links.

+ I added a definition for "thought" because each of the other component concepts of "form" is defined.

Cheers,

Nice job of grasping the concepts, extending the work and organizing it.  Your hierarchical outline now appears at the end of the Glossary Page.

Of course any support material would be welcome.

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I would like to take the next step in actively participating in the "tribe", but like I said, not sure what that entails. I would be willing to start a tribe in Richmond, VA. I look forward to hearing from you and thanks for your time!

See The Directory Page for instructions.

Feeling Childlike

Hi Ed

First off: Thanks!! I am just beginning to go through the material on the tribe site and it is really mind-blowing stuff.

As a first step in application I have tuned into Fred. When I have even a twinge of a feeling I focus my energy on it with my CM (the way a receiver might) in order to "satisfy" Fred's need to be heard.

It appears to work because this exercise brings about a very childlike feeling ... as if I am experiencing these feelings/situations (a form?) FOR THE FIRST TIME.

For example "I don't like that man" - "This makes me anxious" etc. etc. Even cooler - I recognize that I have a judge telling me these feelings are childlike (and therefore "wrong" to feel as an adult).

The best way I can describe this state of mind is childlike or animal - like or "pure" -- I also have another judge saying that it is "nuts" to be talking with this fellow named Fred in your own mind.

Amazing, amazing stuff ... and amazing how it is all linked.

My intuition is that using my own CM as "receiver" for my own Fred is perhaps dangerous (to the extent that the TTP can be) -- and might lead to more drama. Any advice or guidance in this regard?

Also - regarding SVOp - isn't Japanese a present tense only language?

Thanks again

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Patent and Registration

Hi Ed,

Do you patent any of the ideas relating to Radial Momentum? I check up on you to make sure you receive credit for any extensions and applications of this theory.

I think about the Rubik's cube and karaoke machines:

I notice increasing page hits for the site - I wonder if transport, military, and plumbing companies are curious now ~

Thanks,

The curator there tells me he "kind of agrees" with me and that he can't change it since that would go against a lot of conventional physics.

Ed,

I start the Philadelphia Tribe with your approval.

Thanks for everything.

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I hope your late-night trip home was safe. Personally i got a lot out the meeting, locating some of my feelings and judges which I was only dimly aware of before, and out of your interaction with Ed.

We now hold the record for the longest meeting ever.

Hi Ed,

Thanks again for [helping me get to] the zero point last Thursday.

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It seems to me they have identical background conditions, but one wins
and the other doesn't, and I wonder what role randomness plays in this
scenario.

Thank you very much for your insights.

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With all these, it serves to remind me that I better treasure my time (or every now moments) that I have on earth, make sure I spend every moment wisely, fulfill my destiny and make it a trip worthwhile thus leaving absolutely no regrets (hmmm, regret ... funny that it is the exact issue I brought up in the May workshop, where I found its positive intention to be such that I do the right things NOW).

Wow, how powerful!! Thanks Ed!!!!!

ciao,

I'm am interested in an idea. am interested in what you think. day-trading operations are considering either closing or expanding. the divergence presents an opportunity to me ... i have been trading for four years, and have provided wins not only for myself, but for my friends. together, we will grow. can i tell you that i am a firm believer of beginning short term and expanding out to larger periods.

sincerely,

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